Today, I am very sad. I have not been this sad due my results since a year ago long time.
All this while, I don't know why, but I realised I have to work extra hard compared to others to get what I want. This is always the case when it is about results. For SPM, I did not get A1 for my biology, I worked really hard yet I failed. During A levels, I scored a B for my Biology again. Perhaps I am just not that good in Biologi? Haha..MAYBE..
Fine, now I am doing ACCA, not science anymore, but I still can't score well even though I put a lot of hardwork and effort. Let's talk about Tax alone. the lecturer is really dedicated, she gives us a lot of homework and extra classes. I really appreciate her although I complaint a lot. She has high expectation for her students just like I have expectations for myself. I JUST WANT TO DO MY BEST..just that simple.
Nothing comes easily in life, I understand the fact. I did not ask for "free gift". I just want to see the fruit after so much of hardwork. Is really heartbroken to know that you are actually not that smart even though you are so hardworking. Tonnes of homework, but I make sure I do all before Tax class. Because of this particular subject, I sacrified most of my time. Other subjects I almost neglected them. It 's so disheartening when you only score 58% for a subject you study almost everyday. Perhaps some may think that I push myself too hard. I will answer no! I just have my own expectations ( Come on! I worked 10 times harder than I normally do). Perhaps some may say, it is just a test, not the finals but then it reflects how much I have in my brain. I am so *&^%$#@$%* ( not rough words, just don't know how to describe my feelings) . Some of my friends who did not really complete their homework , copying my homework sometimes is still able to get about my marks. What is my problem?? I just hope..hope that I will see the results after hardwork, I did not ask for free..
Such an unhappy day. T.T
