MY MiRaCLE

Being borned in a warm family, having satisfying results, lots of friends, a loving and caring boyfriend..what else can I ask for in live? Having the concept that I will never be alone(USED TO have) , never being abandoned even when I have problems, definitely I am satisfied. When I sometimes fall because of certain minor problems, I will be complaining..other than complaining, still complaining..haha..then I will think of God..praying for a better life, but then where is He when I am well to do?? I have to admit I have put Him aside. Studying, sleeping..these two biggest temptation for me to overcome..

Talking about faith, I have been believing in Jesus for about more 2 years..but off and on I will be like in and out of faith, sounded like Katy Perry's Hot N Cold..AHA.. being advised several times, till I think he is tired of "lecturing" me..till today..when I watched the movie " Passion Of Christ" I finally felt what he has been feeling( partially I think, at least)..crying for about 2 hours, laughing, crying, laughing again. Sounded like an insane lady?? I am not, just that I felt the pain, the pain Jesus was carrying with Him, I felt the LOVE He has for his people. Why laugh? You might ask. Haha..because someone at the corner trying to make me stop crying, telling funny things...I felt like crying but certain things he mentioned make me feel like laughing..so off and on..laugh, cry, laugh...referring to David..=P ( Thinking of the circus...* cough cough* *giggling* )

Posting a blog like this, not trying to tell others I am holy, just to share some of my feelings..basically, to express the thoughts I have. When I actually look into his eyes after I watched the movie, I just felt like crying..realising maybe I have indeed taken him for granted sometimes, thinking that he is 100% loyal and will never leave me..but the most important is, I actually see the love in him, I felt his LOVE he has for God and the LOVE he has for me. I see him, I see Jesus, I see his love for me, changing me for good, and I see...how terrible was I and I can be if I dont change but never really tell him how I felt today. I couldn't tell him how much I thank him and how many things he made me realise today. When I felt like telling, it was stucked half way out of my mouth which turned into silence or rather turned into a normal conversation. Gazing into his eyes, I felt the passion, the care and the love. Being brought together as a couple, I have always taken it as a blessings, perhaps I have not treasured him enough, then I finally realised. Being with him, is how I felt God's love and mercy for me..perhaps, it was arranged for me to realise what I need to change. He as my guide in my journey of faith would definitely be an important role to play( just hope that I would not be a hopeless and stubborn learner).

Thinking of the problems I have been facing with my ex, my religious life before I met David, I do think a lot sometimes. I realised how "good" I can be in running away from problems..Images, music of my past playing in my mind, how I came to INTI, how active I was in club activities, how I had late nights at SS15, how I got with my ex, how it ended and how I started my current life in Sunway, having new friends, got to know David etc. Definitely, it was of a 360 degrees of change or perhaps more. Now, I no longer have to find excuses to go to church, no longer have to hide my relationship, no longer have to quarrel before going for praise and worship, everything was as how I wished it would be. I understand, a blessing can somehow turn into a curse if I don't treasure( not saying that before that I was never happy and don't like my life, just that they are different in ways). The fact is, not being too comfortable with current life and starts to put everything aside or everyone aside to focus on what I have and what I want. It's time to stop, reflect on everyday life on how I can improve myself into a better person and starts thanking and appreciating what I am blessed with.

BELIEVE, BELIEVE and I WILL DO IT..

LEARN NOT TO SAY BUT RATHER DOING IT..

TIME IS A FACTOR BUT NOT A LIMITING FACTOR..

LEARN TO APPRECIATE AND NOT TO COMPLAIN..
TRUST AND LOVE WITH MIND, BODY AND SOUL...

NEVER THINK OF WHAT I'VE GOT BUT RATHER WHAT IS YET TO COME..

NEVER THINK OF HOW SUCCESSFUL I AM BUT RATHER WHAT I'VE FAILED TO DO ..

LEARN, REFLECT BUT NEVER JUDGE ON PEOPLE...

More things to learn in future but let's get the ball rolling..=)

p/s: Thank you for everything, realised how fortunate of me to have a wonderful person like you. I will treasure. I love you. Forgive me for my stubborness. Together we will work"our own" miracle and wonders.